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London Fashion Week: Fall 2009 RTW: Top 6

April 16th, 2009 (09:06 am)

current mood: depressed
current song: Tori Amos - Happy Phantom

6. Todd Lynn
"Heaven send us better times" was the theme, and there was indeed a vaguely clerical aesthetic to the collection - with a gothic edge. The focus was on skinny pants, perfectly cut in a wide range of fabrics, equally as skin-tight turtlenecks, with fabulously tailored jackets, blazers,coats, and even Beautiful scarves further alluded to clerical vestments, as did the (rosary?) beads. The black-and-white collection seemed to have a devotional precision - pristine and strong, yet there was a definite sex appeal - androgynous, like angels.
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What Big Cat Are You?

April 8th, 2009 (08:00 pm)

current mood: thoughtful
current song: Garbage - Push It

fact: I adore most big cats (except lions). They are my favourite creatures.

You Are a Snow Leopard
You have learned that you must rely on yourself, and yourself alone, to live a happy life.
You are understand the world better than most people you know. You are very perceptive and intuitive.

You need lots of space to think. If you don't get the space you need, you're likely to bite someone's head off.
Because you are so thoughtful and solitary, people find you to be intense and mysterious. You're even seen as intimidating.

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I feel that Snow Leopard, Lynx, and Jaguar are all very accurate. Black Panther was actually the second result I got, but I don't feel that the second section works. White Tiger is essentially true until the last sentence. I seek truth, but I EMBRACE ambiguity. I am not a black-and-white thinker by any means. However I care intensely about things and can be fierce in my expression. Mostly though, read the first three.

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New York Fashion Week: Fall 2009 RTW: #1-6

April 7th, 2009 (06:10 am)

current mood: lonely
current song: Tori Amos - Father Lucifer

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New York Fashion Week: Fall 2009 RTW: #7-14

April 6th, 2009 (02:22 am)

current mood: tense
current song: The Seven Mile Journey - Identity Journals (anonymous

There has been a lot of anxiety in the fashion world over the recession. A number of labels have gone under, and nearly all have had to cut back on expenses. But what would happen to the clothes? The Fall 2009 Fashion Season was therefore surrounded by anxiety. Thankfully there were a number of pleasant surprises....but those came in Europe; New York was extremely disappointing. It was commercial, with very little sense of artistry at all. The clothes were generally safe and designed to please specific markets. The 80s were everywhere, and dull hipsterism dominated. Balmain knockoffs were prevalent. (see my Spring 09 Paris writeup to see Still, there were some collections that more or less delivered.

(also of lower quality is my writeup, but then my life is all chaos and I haven't the time.)

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Time Out

April 4th, 2009 (03:57 pm)

current mood: depressed
current song: the house band

In recent news: I have completely broken down emotionally. But it will get better, I hope.

I've decided to make a concerted effort to blog again. I feel it may be an important exercise that has been missing from my life and has lead to the atrophy of my sanity, self-confidence, social life, and schoolwork. So from now on I must make an entry with real self-generated content at least once a day.

As a consequence of recent events, I have decided to pursue medical leave. It was very difficult to convince my family of the necessity of this, and so I am left with quite a bit of shame to work through. Even my mother, who was relatively supportive, pointed out many times how I have a pattern and that there has to be a change. I do have a pattern, but I was not being treated for atypical bipolar disorder before, so I do not think it is fair to insist that because I have had breakdowns nearly every semester that this will always be the case. Or at least this is what I try to tell myself.

I find that there is a constant tension between my own value system and my desire to live up to the value systems of others - this was perhaps as much of a contributer to my eating disorder as my clinical depression or anything else. *I* believe that the most important thing regarding education is to actually learn and engage with others in the world of ideas. This is why I am able to be assertive, passionate, confident in class - although I am normally painfully shy and devoid of self confidence. Ideas empower me. Thought empowers me. I get so swept up in the intellectual discourse that I forget to judge myself. Often I will leave class and feel that I said something stupid or that I was loud-mouther and obnoxious; I will conclude that I was wrong to speak up at all. But this is only after the fact. I believe speaking one's mind is important. If we only think our own thoughts we are just treading in stagnant water. Think, learn, keep an open mind, actively dispel your natural ignorance, love, have compassion, sympathize, listen, speak out, grow, transform, be yourself - these are my personal commandments.

But I am an overly sensitive person. I am keenly aware of what the values of my society are and despite their incompatibility with my own I try to match their standards of achievement. I feel the need to be pretty and thin; I feel the need to get A's; I feel the need for prestige. I see the dangerous currents of our society but I feel helpless to change them. I have no sympathy for myself. I judge myself as I would not judge my friends - with societal standards, not my own.

But I cannot get everything done - I can't "just do" an assignment. No, I want to do something I can be proud of; I want to be thorough; I want to fully consider things. No one else seems to do that here - because there simply isn't the time. But my definition of excelling is doing things to the best of your ability, not just so that it is adequate for a good grade and in by the due date. Yet when I fail to do the latter, I still judge myself harshly because I know others are and I feel I have let people down. These dual standards - which cannot really be achieved simultaneously -combined with my atypical bipolar disorder, major depressive disorder, and anorexia nervosa- lead to periodic breakdowns that I cannot seem to recover from. I often think I am not brave enough or capable enough for this world - but I suppose what I really need is to learn to strike a balance between my own value system and the value system of the world. I wish I could ignore the latter, but I have not been able to - because I want to be liked and respected - and my survival instinct tells me I ought not to completely ignore it.

I must find a balance. But first I need this time off to find the right medication for my new diagnosis and rebuild from the shattered remains my sense of self.

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Signs of the Zodiac

March 18th, 2009 (10:08 pm)

current mood: curious
current song: The Decemberists - The Queen's Rebuke/The Crossing

Quizzes that measure how similar to each zodiac sign I am. I was not really surprised with most results - I am on the Pisces/Aquarius cusp (using accurate dates that most don't use; full Pisces by convention) and I have a heavily Sagittarius chart. I was, however, surprised by the Virgo result - I never used to have much of the earth element in my personality; just goes to show how much people can change.

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You are 80% Pisces

You are 80% Pisces

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What Color Green Are You? (In honour of St. Patty's Day)

March 17th, 2009 (11:03 am)

You Are Emerald Green
Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.
Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.
People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.
But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

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What's Your Celtic Animal?

March 17th, 2009 (10:51 am)

Your Animal is the Seal
You are a compassionate, sensitive soul. You feel deeply.
You are also a dreamer and a romantic. You have a glorious imagination.

You are flexible and adaptable. You can make do in any situation.
You are very loving and affectionate. You are generous toward those who are important to you.

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What Scent Candle Should You Light?

March 16th, 2009 (08:36 am)

current mood: sleepy
current song: Joanna Newson - Monkey & Bear

You Should Light a Berry Candle
You are creative yet down to earth. You have unique tastes, but you aren't snobby or picky.
You crave new experiences. You enjoy unusual things even more once you can get your friends into them.

You're the type of person who's a trend setter and an innovator. You know what's fated to become popular.
You find the world energizing and inspiring. For you, there's nothing like the thrill of discovery.

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The description of the berry candle is more accurate, but I much prefer the scent of cinnamon candles.

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What Chakra Are You? All my Potential Results

March 11th, 2009 (03:37 am)
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current mood: gloomy
current song: Rachel's = even/odd

If you know me, you will not be surprised that given two possibilities, I often find both to be accurate about myself. Therefore I got a number of results to this quiz, all of which I feel are accurate. I placed them more-or-less in the order of accuracy(?).

You Are the Heart Chakra
You are loving, kind, and empathetic. You feel for the world, and you truly value peace.
You have many close relationships, and you work hard to make them harmonious.

You are accepting and understanding. You are tolerant of all sorts of viewpoints, even if you don't agree with them.
You are very forgiving. When you love someone, your love is unconditional.

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